An Open Letter To My Adopted Mother

Dear Person,

Thank you! I wanted to start this out by letting you know how much I appreciate you! I love you so much! You will never understand the amount of love I have for you. you took me in when I had no where else to go. you loved me like your own and you always made sure to take my feelings and situation into consideration. you have always been there for me since the day that I met you. You spent more time with me on my wedding day than my own mother. You held me while I cried and you gave me amazing life advice. You always made sure to let me know that I had a family even when I felt like an orphan. I can never begin to tell you how much You mean to me and that you will always be my momma. I know my sister sometimes had an issue when other people would cling to you as I do, but we talked about it, and she was totally cool. Honestly, in a way, it feels like I belong in your family, and that yall belong to me. Not in a weird possessive way or anything. But you are my family and I will forever be grateful to you. I know this is short, but im not going to add fluff to make it this huge drawn out thing. I simply want to tell you this, Thank you. Thank you for always being there and never letting me down. Thank you for always keeping every promise that you have ever made me. Thank you for giving me something to call my own. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and allowing me to be me and accepting me for that. You never judged my craziness or my weirdness. You simply took me as I was and never asked any questions. Thank you for being my mom when I needed one most. You truly are one of the best things that God has ever blessed me with! he knew what he was doing when he brought all of us together. And I really know that he knew what he was doing when he didn’t allow my sister and I to actually be sisters. Lord knows you would have killed one if not both of us. Thank you. I love you to the stars and back.

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An Open Letter To My Boys

Dear Boys,

I miss you so incredibly much. I don’t come see you like I know I should. But I feel funny sometimes sitting there crying my heart out and talking to a rock. That rock that shows me how much it is real. You are gone and I am still here. We all are still here. Your death brought us together, then soon after, we all went our separate ways again. It was like you were the glue that held our family together. The good die young, always. I sometimes just tell myself that you are still there, it helps me feel better about everything. Or that one week how you two went on vacation the week of the 4th of July, sometimes I just tell myself that you are on a long extended vacation. It doesn’t help soften the hurt. I know You still love and watch over all of us, but it still hurts that you are gone. I miss you two so much. It’s never good-bye, only see you later…

Fly high my free Birds.

An Open Letter to The Town That Built Me

Dear Person,

Well, actually it should be said “Dear Place”, Thank you for shaping me. Thank you for allowing to grow and have an appreciation for you. But you don’t feel like home anymore. Getting away from you was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. You probably ask, “Why say such hateful things?” well, its quite simple. I grew up in a place that I didn’t belong. I was made fun of. I was belittled and I was made to feel like I never fit in. Because I didn’t. Thank God I found a group of friends that accepted me and we formed our own band of misfits. Literally, a band. We were the band. If it weren’t for my friends, I would never have made it away from you. To this day it makes my skin crawl just thinking about having to come home and visit. I never did anything to anyone. No I am not trying to play the victim. This is the  truth. I would never move back even if someone paid me. Why move back to my “home” when all the people who made me miserable never left. They never will leave. They are going to stay there and procreate, making mini bullies and things will never change. So why would I come home to a place where I was looked down upon, where I wasn’t liked, because I wasn’t like them. You are nothing but a giant sorority. I want nothing to do with that. I know that no matter where I go in life, there will always be someone who doesn’t like me, but when I have children, I don’t want them to have to endure that. I want them to be able to create their own identity. I don’t want you to have an impact on their lives like you did mine. So I will never return. I hope you don’t take it personal, It wasn’t you, just the offspring that you spun off. This isn’t good-bye, this is see you later, because I always have to come back to visit.

 

 

An Open Letter To My Best Friend’s Future Husband

Dear Person,

I know that we aggravate each other. I know that we have an unspoken war forever going on inside our heads towards one another, always hoping that she will pick one of us over the other. But I want you to know, that is going to come to an end. I am graciously backing out of this war and taking my place where I belong. I knew this day was coming and honestly I have been dreading having to face it. You see, My best friend has always been there. In the middle of the night crying because I had no where to go, she was there. When we would go months at a time not speaking to one another, she was still there. When she calls me frantic and I drop what I am doing and get to her as fast as possible. When she doesn’t want to face her fears, I take her hand and we face them together. When I came along, I vowed to help her raise her child, and that’s what I have done, and am still doing. You see, this is our cycle, this is how we are. We are conjoined as one and we hold on to each other, because we are stronger together than apart. I want you to know, that this process, of me splitting us apart has been difficult. It started when I got married, and I knew the day would come when she got married that our “divorce” would be finalized. You are taking my place as her best friend. You are replacing me as her go to when her world is falling apart. I don’t think you realize the shoes you are about to have to fill. I want you to promise me that no matter how hard times get between you two, that you will NEVER let her down or go. I want you to promise me that you will fight for her, stand up for her, and respect her no matter what happens. No matter if your parents don’t like her. No matter if you think that all of it isn’t worth it, It is so worth it. You have no idea the gem that you are holding. I want you to be sure of who you are and what you want before you agree to any of this. I want you to be careful in your decisions, because you will be affecting my best friend. Yes, I am stepping back and giving you my place, but do not think for a second, that I will not fly off the handle at you and knock you out of my spot if you mess up. That is how this works, I am not gone forever, just merely in the shadows, I will always be there to give you advice and help you along the way, after all, she is very difficult. But I can promise you this, no one knows her like I do. It is as when we were born, God split us in half and we were destined to find each other. Honestly, she is my soul mate, not in that weird way or anything, but we get each other like no one else does. We know what the other is thinking and feeling from miles away. I am trusting you with one of the most precious things in my life. Because if she loves you, then I love you too.

An Open Letter to My Niece

Dear Person,

I want to express the amount of love that I have for you. I want you to know that you are by far one of the best things that has ever happened to me. You are still so young and have already experienced so much. I hope one day, I can love my own child as much as I love you. You set the moon in the sky baby girl. I honestly look at you like you are my own. I am always and forever going to be there for you, no matter how hard life gets, no matter how much you have messed up, I will always be there to help you through whatever it is that you need. I promise this to you. You are so bright, sweet, kind, and loving. You are so dramatic, and I swear you should have been born to me. Even your momma says you should have been my kid. I just want you to know, that the good lord placed you in my life exactly when I needed you most. I love you to the stars and beyond my little bear. You are the best niece ever!

An Open Letter To The People Who Raised The Man I Married.

Dear People,

I know, I am like a bull in the china cabinet. I just kind of bust through the doors of your home, family, and lives like I owned the place. But, I wanted to say thank you. one at a time of course. Mom I want to start with you. I know that sometimes we aggravate each other to no end. I know that there are things that you and I both do that we do not agree with. I know I married and took your baby boy away. I know that you miss him and love him dearly, but I also know that you do not resent me. I want to thank you for taking me in when I had no where to go. I want to thank you for loving me and treating me like your own. I want to thank you for raising Michael to be the man that he is, for teaching him to respect me, love me, and do anything in his power to protect me. I want to thank you for being a friend when I needed one. Thank you for being a parent when I needed one. I know that I do not tell you often enough how grateful I am for everything. But I want you to know, that everything you have done, has not gone unnoticed. I love you so much thank you mom. Dad, thank you for loving me. Thank you for showing me that not all men run away from their responsibilities. Thank you for showing me that It is possible for a man to take action and responsibility for what he has done. Thank you for being the only dad out of the three I have had to show me that you will never leave me. I know that we don’t speak much, but that is ok. It is an understood type thing we have going on. Thank you for taking me in, loving me unconditionally, and teaching your son how to fight for and never give up on a relationship. Thank you for always being there to listen and give advice. I love you so much! I want to express how grateful I am to have two such amazing wonderful in-laws like you two. Not every girl who marries into a family is as blessed as I am when it comes to you.

An Open Letter To My Little Sisters

Dear People,

I love you. First off please let me start with that. I never have been good at this whole being an older sibling thing. I have never had people look up to me and aspire to be like me. I don’t know how to be an amazing role model, I can only be me. I want you to know, that I do try very hard to be the best role model and example that I can be for you guys. I want you to know that there is not anything that you cannot come to me about. You may think that I do not know how hard it is being a teen, but trust me, I do. I know that life isn’t fair, people are cruel, and things almost never go the way we planned. But I want you to know, that its going to be ok. Life is one big storm and you have to dance in the rain. I don’t want you to be just like me, now before you go off saying how harsh that is, let me finish, I want you to be you. I want you to learn from my mistakes and heartaches. I don’t want you to have to go through all the tough times that I did. I want you to succeed and make a difference in the world. I want you to love everything about yourself, even if you absolutely detest it. I want you to be the best you that you can be. I don’t want you to be me. I love you so very much, and I hope that you realize how special and wonderful you truly are.

An Open Letter To Myself

Dear Person,

Wow… That is all I can really say. You have come so far. You still have a long way to go. You have been strong for so long and you must continue to do so. God does not give you anything you cannot handle. Please always remember that. You have to stay strong and be courageous. Life is not easy, it throws curve balls and you never know what is going to happen. I want you to always remember how special you are. I want you to remember how loved you are. I want you to always be yourself and never accept anything less. You are who you are and no one can or will ever compare to you. I know I am talking to myself, but sometimes you need a reminder. My hope is that you will see this one day while you are scrolling along and it will help you remember to keep your head above the water and fight to always achieve better than what you have. NEVER SETTLE. You have so much love to give. You have such a huge heart. You may not know this now, but you are going to be so successful, you feel like you are behind, you feel like you are a failure, you feel like you are 35, not 20. You have had to grow up quickly, its not a bad thing.. just remember at 23, JK Rowling was broke, Oprah was fired from being a news reporter, Walt Disney was filing Bankruptcy, and Tina Fey worked at the YMCA. It is ok to not be ok. It is ok to not have a plan or have everything figured out…. its called life, things happen for a reason and when life hands you lemons you throw them back at life and tell it, ” Oh HELL NO! Not today you don’t!” You are strong, Independent, and smart… you will get through this and you will come out on top.

An Open Letter To My Twin

Dear Person,

Ok, so I know I am your favorite person in the world! You are my best friend. Not the type of best friend that I have with my husband or the type of friend I have with my friends. But you are my brother. We are closer than anything in this world. You call me out on my stuff and make me own it. You have my back when I need it. You let me learn from my mistakes and you love me for me. We don’t always get along or agree. But we are thick as thieves. I know without a shadow of a doubt, you will always be there for me. You have helped me become to loving, caring, amazing person that I am. Life with you hasn’t been easy, there were times when we didn’t talk, when we swore we hated each other, but the next time we saw each other it was like nothing ever happened. Growing up we would stay up all night, we had a secret code, we were each other’s best friends, hell we still are. We aren’t twins, but people wouldn’t know that if we didn’t tell them. Sometimes I wished we were. I looked up to you. You looked up to me. We carried each other through the rough times. We never let the other down. Honestly I cannot imagine my life without you. Yes we fought a lot, bribed each other, but we also protected and loved each other. You made growing up so much easier, forgetting how rough our lives were. Not that we went without because we didn’t. But knowing I was never alone, unloved, or bored, made it easier. You are an amazing person! I am so very glad that you are mine! I love you so much, even if “you are such a bitch!” 😉

To The Man That Looks Nothing Like Me

Dear Person,

Hi, It’s your favorite person in the entire world. Well, I don’t really know that for sure, but I like to think of myself that way. I want to thank you for sticking around. Thank you for never giving up on me and always believing in me, even when I didn’t believe in myself. Thank you for stepping up to the plate and making sure that I was on the right path. You had to grow up way to fast, in a way, I am not sorry for that, you turned out to be great! But in a way, it kinda hurts my heart, knowing that you had to sacrifice so much and miss out on so much for what? To take care of your little brother and sister… See, that’s always where it gets me, you are my role model, growing up when people would ask me what I wanted, I wanted to be you. I wanted to be just like you, I wish I could have your grades, follow your footsteps, be popular, well liked, smart, independent, and just plain you. For so long my world revolved around you. You hung the moon and placed all the stars in the sky. In reality, I know you didn’t, but to me… you did… You always taught me to stand out in the crowd, to be who I am. So I did. I put you so high on a pedestal that sometimes I think you got tired of being so high off the ground. At times I’m sorry I held you to such a standard, I really pushed the pressure on you. But there are other times I’m glad I had you to be the one to fall back on. In many ways you are my rock. Thank you for teaching me, guiding me, and loving me. Your the best oldest brother anyone could ever have. Words cannot describe my admiration for you.